Friday, June 17, 2011

Prints now for sale!

I will be making more artworks available for sale through Artist Websites in the future, but for now, I have 5 of my favourites available for purchase.

Click here to get your very own Jason Burrell print.  Please.  No really, I mean it.  I'm pretty much broke and I need your help.  Besides, these guys do an awesome job.  Check it out!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Awkward

Living in a studio apartment with your ex-girlfriend is hard.  Probably in no small part due to the fact that it's at least as hard for her (or, in this case, likely harder, since I'm the one staying and she's trying to find a new place).  She's totally stressed out, and I don't blame her.  I'm trying to be supportive and understanding, trying to make this transition as easy and painless as possible, but I'm the one who said it was time to end it.  No matter what happens from this point on, let's face it, I'm the asshole in this situation. We're looking at least another two weeks like this, and possibly more like four or six.  And it's awkward.

I can't seem to paint.  I can never quite get comfortable. Strangely though, I've been drawing a lot lately.  Or maybe not so strangely.  I always have my  sketchbooks in my bag.  I use them for everything from calendars to to-do lists to canvas layouts to shopping lists, so they're always handy.  So now my sketchbooks actually have a few sketches in them.  Which is weird on the one hand because I rarely draw, but on the other, not so weird at all, since all the drawing I've done has been anywhere but at home.

I sort of want to just crawl into a hole by myself and hide for the next few months, but I'm afraid of what may emerge if I do that again.  I've handled a few breakups that way before, so I know what's possible, and it's not always pretty. But I can't, even if I were sure I wanted to.  There's no place to hide right now.  Drifting, it feels like, in some sort of limbo.

I really want to paint.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Tumultuous Times

Major changes. 

I haven't been posting lately because I haven't been painting lately, with everything going on.  Meghan and I have decided to break up.  I'm not going to speak too much about details here, but obviously, this impacts my life and my art significantly, so it bears chronicling.  

The romantic period in our life together seems to be ending amicably, hopefully leaving open the possibility of a strong friendship.  The day to day things may be strange for a little while though, at least until we've sorted out new living arrangements.

I'm not really certain how to explain this all to Jarvis.  He's known her since he was 7, and has really grown to like her a lot over the past few years.  He's nearly 11 now, and has gotten to know and trust her very well.  I hope this isn't too tough on him. 

And I'm not sure what this means for my painting. In some ways, I think I may feel freer, but I'm also very sad about the breakup and worried about its implications in the utilitarian aspects of my life.

We'll see what happens.
"Panta Rei": everything flows.